I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

So I guess I'm going to REALLY recover this time I freaking hate it but I have to do this. Honestly nothing matters anymore I have a fuc*ed up mind and a screwed life ever since my childhood. I have no freedom whatsoever so what's the point in trying to be pretty? I actually fainted because my father scolded me really bad today morning. I just want to die but of course suicide isn't a choice. I just don't understand why am I living anymore. I'll prolly start cutting again. I just don't care anymore. I'm a liar and a cheater right dad? I'm a complete mistake.

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KandiGhostcat · 22-25, F

Times are tough when we're children and teens, but you HAVE to get through this no matter what! I've suffered (and still am) from anxiety. It's really hard since it can make you feel terrible everyday of your life. And sometimes you just want to give up, but you can't give up. You can NEVER give up! Living is very important and everyone was born in this world for a reason (that goes for you too). I want freedom, independence, to be myself, and everything else too. But in order for me to do that I have to get through this terrible teenhood. Me and you both need to get through this no matter what. Our mental illnesses may be strong, but so are we. I've had anxiety since I was 8 and I've made it to be 17 yrs. old already. You will get closer to being an adult one day too. Then you will also be able to say "Hey, I got through this."