I Battle Depression
No longer truly a battle, but an acceptance of it. Depression is a part of me, just like my arm, so I deal with it like I do with my arthritic elbow
70-79, M
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leoparddingo
A friend of mine once told me "if you haven't figured out your problems in twenty years, you'll probably never figure them out". I immediately knew that this was one of those cold hard truths of life. I wish it wasn't true, but wishing does no good.
JoannaBe
I am 42, and I have finally started to figure out my problems in the last two years. It is never too late to change and to figure things out.
leoparddingo
I've been trying for my entire life. It's just so unbelievably frustrating to have your best efforts continuously fail. There have been a few rare times that i found myself happy, but they are so few and far in between. Twice in seven years... It just slips through my fingers. It's as though life occasionally gives me a taste of happiness in order to remind me of what misery is supposed to feel like. It feels like divine forces are working against me and I'm a lowly and hopelessly overmatched ant facing an angry God. I've felt like this for the last 25 years and I don't want to feel another minute of it. Not today, not tomorrow, or next month, or next year, or next decade. I don't want to spend the prime of my life like this. This isn't the life I wanted to live.
JoannaBe
Have you tried keeping a diary, and looking for patterns of what made a difference in those days that were not so bad? That had helped me tremendously becoming more self aware, looking for patterns, and changing over time. I wish you peace.