I Battle Depression

I know but.. Its like.. My heart and soul are locked to a certain place and certain person and certain life that im yet to have, IF i was set to have. Not a specific place, but somewhere where my soul finds peace, a seashore surrounded by mountains. Not a specific person, but someone who would look into my eyes and forget about my face, someone who would drop the world at any second just to be with me. Not just any life, a life where im independent and free from all the stress and "what if's".