I Am Confused, Anxious, and Depressed

Ohh dear thoughts, could you please leave me alone.
Ohh dear mind, for once, be on my side.

Emotions overflow, and I have to keep them down..
I feel I am killing myself, please tell me how do i stop?

The way, I know, the direction is okay too..
Like missiles they come, and explode in front of me.. these thoughts and emotions. ohh
They kill..

The dust settles, I can't see my track.
But hell, no, my eye is open now, after all this pain, I can feel it blinking.

So much it took, to finally see the light, I can't let this go.

Misery, I am sorry, I have something bigger to do.
So, don't tire yourself bringing me down..

A knowing inside of me, that heaven placed before I was born;
I ain't gonna back down, you fu****g mark my words.