I Am Depressed

I lied to my parents about me giving my two weeks notice. I pretend to go to work 3 times. Yesterday I sneaked out to my new job. But found out it's only part time. The boss didn't interview me. She hired me on the spot. But after I accept the job and filled in the paperwork I was told by her that a bunch of her staff ditch her. For the a while so she has been work twice as hard. Why do jobs do this? All last night I worried. The boss told me that she hired one other people to help. This company claims they work in groups. The boss told me that she thinks I'm a sweet girl. But she got angry when thinking if I leave after 6 months. I am driving an hour away for a part time job. I know the last time I posted about my job that my anxiety gets in the way. I been told to face it head on or just don't worry about it. To me its not that easy. When I do get overwhelmed that when I get depressed. I feel worthless almost all the time. I tried to take a break from work. But I left more depressed and worthless. I don't know what to do. If I tell my parent that I'm driving an hour away to a part time job they would just tell me to quit. I don't I'm lost and confuse and pissed off with myself.