I Battle Depression

I am an average late 40's man. Everyone thinks I am funny and laid back. I have accomplished many things in my life that people admire. Or so I am told often. I am well educated. Financially I am ok. I have a family that loves me and friends that I have been super close with my whole life.

But behind my smile and jokes.. I simply want to die. Tonight, it has come upon me strongly. I know not from where. I am exhausted and very tired. I am broken inside. I feel no joy, only sadness, despair. I am desperately lonely in spite of people all around who love me. No one will ever understand.

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ChiRho · 31-35, M

Sometimes I think depression is a physical illness as much as it is a pychological and emotional one. Have you sought out therapy? I'm finding the more I speak what is on my mind the more it can be released gradually. Even with help it doesn't get better overnight. It is something you have to fight. Sometimes with all your strength. Don't give up hope and succumb to it. Your friends and family need you. We all have a purpose in this life, something special only you can offer and world wouldn't be the same without you. I will be praying for you friend. Peace be unto you.