I'm back... prolly in another cycle of my BP2.

It's been a while,
Job's taking over
But now I'm back...

I used to journal here about my newly discovered bipolar. I was hypomanic (or neutral) but now for sure I'm neither. My mood has become constantly low and all I'm thinking of is to check yet another psychiatrist. (The first ones were so judgemental and I am scared to get checked up again.)

I'm in a spiral of negative thoughts and I think Imma start journaling here again regardless of people's judgement.

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PinkMoon · 26-30, F

Hey hey, I'm sorry you're experiencing the other swing of this condition we have. I would like to encourage you try another psychiatrist. Unfortunately as most people who have had to navigate the mental health system will tell you,finding the right psychiatrist/therapist can be hard. Sometimes you have to go on a couple of bad dates before you find the right one.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@PinkMoon
It's so scary and I do not know who to choose. I went to someone who gave me medication that seemed fit to my condition and I want to take the meds but do not want to go back to the psychiatrist. (she was judgemental)
I am so scared of going to another one in my state of mind (when I went to the first three I was hypomaniac so it was okay to have them judge me... but now? I don't even know how I'm going to be reacting.)
I'm also scared to start the meds, it is going to be a big big big journey and none of my family knows about it. I'm so worried.