I’m starting to think I’m bipolar
To be fair, after all this time I’m quite sure 🥲
I’m not sure if a diagnose would be helpful though. Seems pretty pointless. I tried medication for depression years ago and felt like I was no longer myself after a while. Everything felt numbed.
I often think that it comes with pro’s and con’s as well. Of course we all know the con’s, and yes they suck, but nobody ever really talks about the pro’s.
In my moments of euphoric mania, I deliver outstanding results at work and ideas flow, I suddenly think of solutions to complex problems and see a whole process envisioned step by step of how to get to a solution. I honestly see things only a little amount of people do.
It also enables me to work in hyperfocus for about 6 hours non stop if I’m inspired.
But when the coin turns, I want to break off my marriage, leave my job, go on a buying spree, feel like nothing ever makes me happy, have a full blown existential crisis, cry over an hour over something very insignificant, etc.
I’m not sure if I should get it diagnosed and get it out there in the open. It could be helpful for some people to know. On the other hand, I’m starting to recognize the difference and the episodes so I’m not sure if it would actually make a difference.
I’m not sure if a diagnose would be helpful though. Seems pretty pointless. I tried medication for depression years ago and felt like I was no longer myself after a while. Everything felt numbed.
I often think that it comes with pro’s and con’s as well. Of course we all know the con’s, and yes they suck, but nobody ever really talks about the pro’s.
In my moments of euphoric mania, I deliver outstanding results at work and ideas flow, I suddenly think of solutions to complex problems and see a whole process envisioned step by step of how to get to a solution. I honestly see things only a little amount of people do.
It also enables me to work in hyperfocus for about 6 hours non stop if I’m inspired.
But when the coin turns, I want to break off my marriage, leave my job, go on a buying spree, feel like nothing ever makes me happy, have a full blown existential crisis, cry over an hour over something very insignificant, etc.
I’m not sure if I should get it diagnosed and get it out there in the open. It could be helpful for some people to know. On the other hand, I’m starting to recognize the difference and the episodes so I’m not sure if it would actually make a difference.
