Depression

It's been a dark day for me....All I wanted to do today was cry.... I been hiding in my room... Everyone keeps asking what's wrong? How do you get them to understand its everything and everyone around me? Nothing is right when I don't feel or feel to much... The extreme emotions are so very high or so very low... There is no middle ground.... Today has been a low day....The doctor has been taking me off some of my medications... I don't think it's a good plan... I'm feeling miserable today.... I'm hating my life....The only thing I'm not hating is my kids.... I could never hate them.... Just feel like disappearing....Trying to stay positive about things is hopeless today....People favorite line is it will get better.... When does it get better? I feel like a freak because I can't control my emotions without medication....