Diagnosed in 2018 after a severe manic episode [I Live With Bipolar Disorder]
I've been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder for two years, but I really think I've struggled with it for much longer than that.
When I was at the doctor for anti-depressants in 2018, I didn't know much about bipolar disorder. If I knew more, I might not have ended up on Zoloft, which gave me the most severe manic episode of my life.
I get delusions when I am severely manic. I become paranoid and think the government is watching me through my phone. I think my friends are plotting against me. The one time, I literally thought I was a demon.
I broke up with my boyfriend when I went through my worst Zoloft-induced manic episode in 2018. I turned into a completely different person on Zoloft. Luckily, we got back together after I got on the right meds.
I get delusions and hallucinations outside of my mania and depression, so I am really wondering if I have schizoaffective disorder instead of bipolar. I think I've had delusions for years, but the hallucinations started a couple years ago. I don't know why it'd matter whether it's bipolar or schizoaffective, because my NP said the treatment would be the same. I was supposed to undergo some kind of psychological tests to see if it was bipolar or schizoaffective. We were waiting for insurance to approve them, but then COVID happened.
What has gotten me through everything I've been through in the last few years is my dog. She is my emotional support animal, and I probably wouldn't be here without her. My severe manic episode in 2018 turned into a severe mixed episode, and I was a danger to myself and should've been hospitalized. My dog is the only reason I held on, because I was very suicidal. At that time, I was still broken up with my boyfriend.
She is always there for me. She is such an amazing dog, and we have an amazing bond that is unlike any kind of bond I've had with any other animal. And I've had loads of pets.
When I was at the doctor for anti-depressants in 2018, I didn't know much about bipolar disorder. If I knew more, I might not have ended up on Zoloft, which gave me the most severe manic episode of my life.
I get delusions when I am severely manic. I become paranoid and think the government is watching me through my phone. I think my friends are plotting against me. The one time, I literally thought I was a demon.
I broke up with my boyfriend when I went through my worst Zoloft-induced manic episode in 2018. I turned into a completely different person on Zoloft. Luckily, we got back together after I got on the right meds.
I get delusions and hallucinations outside of my mania and depression, so I am really wondering if I have schizoaffective disorder instead of bipolar. I think I've had delusions for years, but the hallucinations started a couple years ago. I don't know why it'd matter whether it's bipolar or schizoaffective, because my NP said the treatment would be the same. I was supposed to undergo some kind of psychological tests to see if it was bipolar or schizoaffective. We were waiting for insurance to approve them, but then COVID happened.
What has gotten me through everything I've been through in the last few years is my dog. She is my emotional support animal, and I probably wouldn't be here without her. My severe manic episode in 2018 turned into a severe mixed episode, and I was a danger to myself and should've been hospitalized. My dog is the only reason I held on, because I was very suicidal. At that time, I was still broken up with my boyfriend.
She is always there for me. She is such an amazing dog, and we have an amazing bond that is unlike any kind of bond I've had with any other animal. And I've had loads of pets.
31-35, F