I feel like I'm spiraling [I Am Bipolar]

I feel like I'm drowning in my own confusion. I don't know what i want out of anything or anyone, especially myself. It's suffocating.

I feel like I have lost my identity. But I don't know if I want to go back to being who I was.

I feel like I'm invisible, and that I have to be loud and obnoxious to be seen. I hate being loud and obnoxious, but I hate being ignored more.

I have a lot of feelings lately. Today I just ran until I threw up. It felt good to be in control of something.