I Am Bipolar

These new meds seem to be kind of working, I'm a lot calmer and I'm not having constant anxiety attacks and [c=#BF0000][b]RAGE[/b][/c] and insomnia and paranoia and all that fun shit you get on the high end, and I also haven't had a single migraine since I started taking it. But it's making me zoned out zombie and sleepy all the time, and I feel unfunny and uncreative. Bleah. Maybe I should back off a bit and try to find a happy medium because I don't really want to spend the rest of my life feeling like this.

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InOtterWords · F

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Give it a little time, maybe once you've stabilised your creativity will return.

SW-User

@InOtterWords I hope so because right now I just can't think of [i]anything[/i] and I'm doing a lot of that emotionless staring-at-the-ceiling where I'm not actually depressed, there's just nothing going on in my brain.

InOtterWords · F

That fog, I still have days of it, but I am not feeling the despair which is so much worse. It's hard to focus and concentrate, but it was harder to do that when I was feeling worse. @SW-User

SW-User

@InOtterWords I couldn't do my old job like this 😭 That really cuts me to the bone. There has to be a happy medium somewhere.

InOtterWords · F

No, but I think I might be almost ready to work again.

Focus on healing right now, don't try and rush it xx
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DarkHeaven ·

@InOtterWords @SW-User I just want to be like I used to be again. Fucking hate being all over the place. It’s better than all my hallucinations, but it still sucks ass.

InOtterWords · F

@DarkHeaven it will never be how it used to be :(

DarkHeaven ·

@InOtterWords Makes me just want to die sometimes. I really hate it.

InOtterWords · F

@DarkHeaven [quote]...once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”
― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
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DarkHeaven ·

@InOtterWords That’s sweet. My storm is never ending but at least I can see the sky sometimes now. 🦋🤗