I Am Bipolar

I was diagnosed recently, I don't know I guess I am glad to finally have a name for this but it's so hard feeling so alone. My biggest feeling is loneliness, I'll really try to make it in the long run but it's just so hard sometimes, when I let the loneliness and despair get the best of me. I know it's all my fault, too, I'm so good at pushing people away so it's natural to not be super close to anybody.