I May Have Bipolar
Intoxicating Ups And Intense Downs... I have always been a really sensitive and shy person. I feel that everything around me has a much stronger effect on me. If something is wrong it's really wrong. If something is wonderful the world is like a fairy tale.
I've been seriously depressed two times. I'd cut my social contacts or pretend that everything is fine and be really dying inside. In these periods I've wanted to hurt or kill myself. I never did anything because I was scared that once I go down that road I wouldn't get up anymore.
When I have a ''high'' it's really above the clouds. I get so creative I can't sleep. Ideas come rushing and I am so exited I have to move all the time and sometimes I even get to this trance like state. I can't understand and I don't care what people talk to me, all that matters are my ideas and creating. During these episodes I do get so many good things done. It never gets out of hand but they don't last that long.
There is a middle ground but usually I'd say I am little more on the high like in a constant hypo mania. That's why when I go down it feels so bad! I hate this roller coaster cause every little thing can trigger it. I doesn't harm the people around me but it's eating me inside when I can't control what I feel at all.
What do you think could this be bi-polar?
I've been seriously depressed two times. I'd cut my social contacts or pretend that everything is fine and be really dying inside. In these periods I've wanted to hurt or kill myself. I never did anything because I was scared that once I go down that road I wouldn't get up anymore.
When I have a ''high'' it's really above the clouds. I get so creative I can't sleep. Ideas come rushing and I am so exited I have to move all the time and sometimes I even get to this trance like state. I can't understand and I don't care what people talk to me, all that matters are my ideas and creating. During these episodes I do get so many good things done. It never gets out of hand but they don't last that long.
There is a middle ground but usually I'd say I am little more on the high like in a constant hypo mania. That's why when I go down it feels so bad! I hate this roller coaster cause every little thing can trigger it. I doesn't harm the people around me but it's eating me inside when I can't control what I feel at all.
What do you think could this be bi-polar?
31-35, F