I Battle Bipolar Disorder

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder after i attempted suicide and was hospitalized six months ago. since, I've been on meds and in therapy. But, now that I moved to college, I no longer has access to meds or therapy because my school has made it super hard to get these things. because of this, i've been in a depressive episode for weeks. my school work is suffering. i can barely get out of bed. i'm self-harming again. i'm not eating. i feel so hopeless and worthless. i am failing my family. i feel so alone. i have no friends besides the ones from home, but i am such a burden to them. i hate this.

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Planktin01 · 22-25, M

I suffer the same. It sucks just waking up feeling like shit some days and incredible on others and having no way to predict. But what we have doesn't have to define us. I understand cutting might get rid of the pain faster, but it's only going to return later, so cutting is futile. Our overwhelming emotions hinders us, yes, but as long as we don't let it stop us, that is what well make us strong. I know you can do because I do it everyday. Don't be afraid to ask for help. And just breathe when ever your having an episode. Do whatever you need just don't harm yourself. I pray for you.

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biloser99 · 22-25, F

i know, i'm trying to fight it. i've attempted suicide, i know how terrible it is to feel like that. i work hard to be good. @Planktin01

Planktin01 · 22-25, M

@biloser99 It'll pay off soon just don't stop trying. It ain't gonna be easy just don't forget who you are, what you want and who loves you. If you don't want to live for yourself then live for them. It will pay off soon. I'm going to bed but if you ever need help I'll be here. Goodnight.

biloser99 · 22-25, F

thanks, good night
@Planktin01

Paliglass · 41-45, F

When suffering with mental health issues unfortunately you have to put your mental health above school, family and anything else because if you don't then all these things will fail anyway.

That is what's happening to you now.

You must put your mental health first. You must get what you need. This is all that matters right now. F*** all the other stuff and I mean f*** - get angry, don't take any shit and do whatever you have to do to stay well.

Madelenie · 26-30, F

I know that feeling, you're not alone.

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biloser99 · 22-25, F

yeAH, this disease is terrible. and i'm dealing with something really bad besides this and it's really confusing me. i feel lost and confused and alone. i tried confiding in someone but it made me feel so much worse. @Madelenie

Madelenie · 26-30, F

@biloser99 hmm idk... but talking to you did make me feel a bit better since I know I'm not alone on this.

biloser99 · 22-25, F

same, you're very understanding. i don't know anyone else like me. it makes me feel so alone sometimes .
@Madelenie

hallsa01 · 51-55, F

You are SOOO SOOO not alone!!!! Let your voice be heard!

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