It was hot today
So it was really hot. We didn't spend much time outside and we had to play the dad card with the boys. They would of stayed outside all day. Oh to be young like that again.
Joel is feeling much better and he finally ate some solid for dinner. I made him chicken and rice. Very bland but he was able to eat a bowl of it. First real food he's had all week. He did take his nausea medicine so that helped.
His ex wife stopped by to see the boys and I'm sure to check on him. She brought him some more medicine as well.
She also said she wanted to talk to us about something. She wants to take the kids to Branson for a long weekend before they go back to school. She wants Sissy to go with her.
I was honest with her. I told her we will ask her but I'm sure she would say no. She said she understands but she just wants to keep trying. I get that.
But honestly I don't know if I would let her go. She's a wonderful person and she's so good with my son. Most people can't handle his energy and I've been told more than once I should put him on medication. She's never once said that. She loves him as he is, the tiny tornado.
But my daughter, that's different. There is so much that I do to keep her in a good place. The family meeting, the meal planning, the schedule, her sensory bag, air pods, her music, her books, her medicine. I can tell when she's getting stressed or anxious. I know what to do to get her back in that safe space. And I can't just write this down because I have to see my daughter to know what she's struggling with at that time to help her.
And what if she was a panic attack while they were gone. There is just so much that could go wrong. I feel like I'm being a bad person. I'm sure someone will say I'm being over protective. But I'm not.
But I can't tell her this. I know it would hurt her feelings. I don't want to do that. I just don't think people understand.
I just worry that one day Sissy might say yes and I don't know what to do.
Joel is feeling much better and he finally ate some solid for dinner. I made him chicken and rice. Very bland but he was able to eat a bowl of it. First real food he's had all week. He did take his nausea medicine so that helped.
His ex wife stopped by to see the boys and I'm sure to check on him. She brought him some more medicine as well.
She also said she wanted to talk to us about something. She wants to take the kids to Branson for a long weekend before they go back to school. She wants Sissy to go with her.
I was honest with her. I told her we will ask her but I'm sure she would say no. She said she understands but she just wants to keep trying. I get that.
But honestly I don't know if I would let her go. She's a wonderful person and she's so good with my son. Most people can't handle his energy and I've been told more than once I should put him on medication. She's never once said that. She loves him as he is, the tiny tornado.
But my daughter, that's different. There is so much that I do to keep her in a good place. The family meeting, the meal planning, the schedule, her sensory bag, air pods, her music, her books, her medicine. I can tell when she's getting stressed or anxious. I know what to do to get her back in that safe space. And I can't just write this down because I have to see my daughter to know what she's struggling with at that time to help her.
And what if she was a panic attack while they were gone. There is just so much that could go wrong. I feel like I'm being a bad person. I'm sure someone will say I'm being over protective. But I'm not.
But I can't tell her this. I know it would hurt her feelings. I don't want to do that. I just don't think people understand.
I just worry that one day Sissy might say yes and I don't know what to do.
