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Sometimes I wish it was easier

I really do. When my buddy called and asked last minute if we wanted to go to the Royals game I almost said no.

Last minute things are not something my daughter does good with. She doesn't like change and this would be a big one.

She was expecting us to relax at home like we do most Sundays. So I told him I'd call him back.

I went to her, she was already relaxing in her bean bag chair by the fire. She was reading a book and listening to music.

The plan was to watch the game at home and we we're going to have nachos. Have s'mores later when the boys got home.

So I sat next to her and said I know we'd planned on watching the game at home but my buddy got suite tickets last minute and wanted us to come.

Do you want to go dad

I want to do what ever you want

She was quiet for a few minutes.

Does Joel want to go.

I haven't asked him yet


Dad, I just started my book.

It's ok we'll just watch it at home. I wasn't going to push her or try and talk her into going. We've had a really good week and I didn't want to mess it up.

I start to get up and she says Wait Dad, I think we should go. It will be fun.

Yeah I think so too

Can I bring my book.

Of course honey.

Can we get Nachos there?

Who goes to a baseball game and doesn't get nachos?

So we went to the game and we had a great time. I was worried the whole game. Worried she only said yes to make me happy. I was worried it would be to much. The change in the plan, loud music, people cheering. We had nachos, popcorn, cheeseburgers, hotdog and ice cream. She did really well. Being in the suite really helped. We were the only ones in there.

But sometimes I just want it to be easier.

I love her so much but I do wish it was easier. And I hate feeling this way.
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YoMomma ·
Maybe less worrying is in order?
Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M
@YoMomma I can't help it. You should know that by now lol

My biggest fear is pushing her to far and her having a panic attack/melt down in public. It could set her back so much.

Making her do something because she thinks she should so she doesn't upset me. Only go to make me happy.
YoMomma ·
@Cigarguy101 at least she is considerate.. really is it so bad to have a meltdown in public? The nice people will understand and the not nice people phooey on them.. but maybe she is stronger than you think mentally? Idk
Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M
@YoMomma her panic attacks are bad. She looses all sense of control and is so over stimulated she doesn't know what she is doing. She will scream, hit herself, pull her hair. It's impossible to calm her down without medicine. Thankfully we haven't had on in public in years. But like I said it's not easy. We have schedules, prepping, her sensory bag. I just don't want it to happen again.
YoMomma ·
@Cigarguy101 oh i see yeah that is scary for her.. i see why you would avoid it because she could physically injure herself at that rate 😳 i get it now 😬 i didn't know they were that intense 😳
Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M
@YoMomma we've come a long way. Like I said it's been years. But it's always in the back of my mind.
YoMomma ·