I posted yesterday about a trigger I experienced

and a lot of people replied how they hate it when that happens.

I can understand that. Nothing is great about being out of control.

That isn't what happened to me this time. I'm still processing it, but I find myself rather glad it went the way it did.

My best friend says that what happened sounds like emotional blackmail. I just know that the trigger made me put on all emotional brakes and stop investing emotionally.

I think a part of me is surprised that my instant reaction was to shut everything down. That seems so unlike me. But I understand my reasons for doing so. I was hurt amazingly deep in the past by a similar move and so my brain is immediately going to protect me.

I don't know if I can get emotions back for this person. I now just feel like I'm going through motions.

I think I'm going to let that lead for a while and see what happens.