Humbug of a Sat Night(last night)
Yesterday .......is where I started this ridiculous long post that is no longer as long. It is about 2pm central, when I started this post and on /off till about now. 10pm.
You ever start a post to explain something that you really truly wished for others to understand? But realized that what you wrote was entirely way to long, drawn out, and to much oversharing. This will be alot shorter. On game back on.........
Basically I had a massive anxiety attack last night after football and chatting with some of you. Always a pleasure 🙏. I had lunch with my parents and my kids.
As some of you have read, I've posted about my bout of alcoholism of many years, and doing well now, at a post, 1 year and 1 month on 8/8 two days ago. Yay!
Anyway, I can get down on myself and quite hard at certain times, especially when there's reminders. The meds I take work well enough daily. But sometimes I can't help it, it's to much and then POP.
And started just putting down everything I did yesterday including when I was on here. Also I struggled to watch the Packer game, and stay in the convos, last evening.
It eventually happens and I get so sick and well you can guess the rest.
The writing below this is the beginning of the end.....where I started erasing everything above.
That does not make sense..... I'm tired....and done.
Sorry.
I just wanted to "talk" out, how one of my anxiety attacks go. I'm sure many will have worse then that. I'm sure they can go for days. I'm not trying to compare or have pissing contests. I'm here, using this platform for social reasons, to get chatty, I come on to improve my mental state and mood. Like most on here, we're trying to have positive impacts and interactions. Right? Yes of course.
Some are trying to get their stuff figured out in their own way. I've noticed some people rub off differently on others, and can make instant bad karma, between them and others.
And I for gods sake don't want this to be a out blown forever written on post. You have your own tale to tell.
You ever start a post to explain something that you really truly wished for others to understand? But realized that what you wrote was entirely way to long, drawn out, and to much oversharing. This will be alot shorter. On game back on.........
Basically I had a massive anxiety attack last night after football and chatting with some of you. Always a pleasure 🙏. I had lunch with my parents and my kids.
As some of you have read, I've posted about my bout of alcoholism of many years, and doing well now, at a post, 1 year and 1 month on 8/8 two days ago. Yay!
Anyway, I can get down on myself and quite hard at certain times, especially when there's reminders. The meds I take work well enough daily. But sometimes I can't help it, it's to much and then POP.
And started just putting down everything I did yesterday including when I was on here. Also I struggled to watch the Packer game, and stay in the convos, last evening.
It eventually happens and I get so sick and well you can guess the rest.
The writing below this is the beginning of the end.....where I started erasing everything above.
That does not make sense..... I'm tired....and done.
Sorry.
I just wanted to "talk" out, how one of my anxiety attacks go. I'm sure many will have worse then that. I'm sure they can go for days. I'm not trying to compare or have pissing contests. I'm here, using this platform for social reasons, to get chatty, I come on to improve my mental state and mood. Like most on here, we're trying to have positive impacts and interactions. Right? Yes of course.
Some are trying to get their stuff figured out in their own way. I've noticed some people rub off differently on others, and can make instant bad karma, between them and others.
And I for gods sake don't want this to be a out blown forever written on post. You have your own tale to tell.
