This past month has been brutal on my mental health
Set off by a trigger and something I have to face, I'm not going to go into details,
But the weird thing is these last 2 days haven't been that bad.
It's like the first time in a month I'm not actively thinking about how to self destruct ☢
And the weirder thing is, I'm on my period which is usually hell, and intensifies my problems 10 fold...
So I'm thinking, either I'm just adapting to the idea of the trigger I have to face because I've been obsessing over it for the past 4 weeks (mental exposure therapy?), or I'm learning enough about the triggers and how they work so I can stay one step ahead, learning how to navigate the triggers? 5 stages of grief?
I dunno,
It's weird,
I actually feel like being productive today, and still not feeling great about the triggers, but also meh, whatever ...
Maybe it was just a depressive episode and I'm just coming out of it?
Lol, I'm kinda like... Just sitting here wondering what the heck just happened 😂
But the weird thing is these last 2 days haven't been that bad.
It's like the first time in a month I'm not actively thinking about how to self destruct ☢
And the weirder thing is, I'm on my period which is usually hell, and intensifies my problems 10 fold...
So I'm thinking, either I'm just adapting to the idea of the trigger I have to face because I've been obsessing over it for the past 4 weeks (mental exposure therapy?), or I'm learning enough about the triggers and how they work so I can stay one step ahead, learning how to navigate the triggers? 5 stages of grief?
I dunno,
It's weird,
I actually feel like being productive today, and still not feeling great about the triggers, but also meh, whatever ...
Maybe it was just a depressive episode and I'm just coming out of it?
Lol, I'm kinda like... Just sitting here wondering what the heck just happened 😂
