Did I fail?

Went drs today and cried because I feel so lost and alone right now so they have put me back on antidepressants which I am not happy about but I know that I cannot keep my head above the water right now.

I have BPD, bipolar, anxiety disorder and they now think I have fibromyalgia but since losing my dad over a year ago it’s taken me down into the darkness and I cannot get myself out right now.

I personally feel like I failed everyone around me because I have done so well with staying above the water but I just can’t stay there.

I have lost to much in the last year and feel so alone in my battle to stay alive, it’s horrible feeling so lost and no one really understanding you.

I guess all I can do is that this medication and find myself again!

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LILY61

i suffer from severe depression from the life that was given me. i can't take medicine because i turn into a test pattern

is yours from life or from birth?

Spiritualangel777

@LILY61 my mental health was from my bad childhood, physical, mental and sexual abuse 😔

LILY61

@Spiritualangel777 mine too. my life doesn't sound real when i try to write it down. maybe you should do that...write your life story. Patty Duke said it was very helpful to her mentally.

Spiritualangel777

@LILY61 yeah I actually do that a lot it does help me I like to manifest as well not been doing that much lately maybe why life when to shit lol

LILY61

@Spiritualangel777 sorry i can't really say much because i don't really know what to do. so how can i tell someone else