Many many posts today

I feel bad

I don't know why

I can't explain this feeling , I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal, I'm what? I don't have any problems now

Then why do I feel like this? Not sad, not happy, not empty, ??? Not ??? What is this feeling

I think I'm supposed to feel okay now
Im fine, I helped myself long ago
Yeah, maybe no one knew, but that's okay now
Not everyone needs to know everything
I dealt it by myself

So what is it that I long for ?