Will my mental illness make my parents think I don’t like them?

My parents are getting older and I’m suffering from anxiety and depression. I want to enjoy my time with them now that they’re getting older but I am always sad and angry. I can’t enjoy my time or at least find it very hard to. I don’t really talk to them to much even though I want to connect to them more because I am depressed and feel lonely even when I’m around other people. What can I do to help myself? I don’t want my parents to think I don’t enjoy their company I am just going through things mentally right now.