The Mental Wellness Thread. 🦋

A safe thread to share the experiences, struggles, and hopefully victories from and through Mental Illness. 🌸

Anyone may join. Post anything daily or as you need about your journey through Mental Illness and also feel free to share any trials and successes in regards to unhealthy coping skills (ie self harm, starving, flushing meds, ect. [just please no graphic specifics as it can be very triggering]) Just a safe place to share stuff without ridicule or shame. Where we can support each other with positivity, kindness, and also compassion. 🖤

Everyone is welcome to use this thread to talk about issues they’ve had with Mental Illness and struggles for Mental Wellness. 🦋

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DragonFruit · 70-79, M

My mental health issues are a combination of depression, alcoholism and lower self esteem (probably linked to my sexuality and the fact that I'm a closeted gay man married to a woman in a sexless marriage).
Last night I finished off a bottle of dark rum, and got drunk in the process....it felt good, and I got horny and browsed some gay porn. It was enough to feel loose without being totally out of control. Had I had another bottle of alcohol, I might have gotten really wasted and been hungover this morning....my problem with alcohol is knowing when to stop when I get to the point of being drunk.
I've been drunk less often over the past several months, but I still struggle with my addiction and I don't know if I'll ever really overcome it

JustGoneNow

@DragonFruit I understand. My drug (adrenaline) is always with me, so all it takes is an episode to push me into my familiar fight/flight. It’s hard for me to try to stay mellow (including my meds to keep me mellow,) when part of me just wants to rage. It’s where I feel the most alive. I hope that I can start to feel really good from just calm joy instead of needing that rush. Part of me, I think… is always gonna want that rush. 🦋

JustGoneNow

@DragonFruit 5 days Uncle Dragon. Oh my gosh. So quick. Thinking about you and hoping you are well. 🖤🤗

DragonFruit · 70-79, M

@JustGoneNow I am well, and had a good holiday weekend with family. Hope you are well as well. 🤗 ❤️

JustGoneNow

@DragonFruit I am, just very busy. ty 🖤🤗