Why do you get high?

Idk anymore. It started out as a way for me to forget stuff. Escalated to stop crying. Then came a point when I felt so much and I wanted to feel nothing. I'm numb the third time in a row and it's good. I can't feel shit. I can't cry after I'm high. I'm just smiling even though it's ripping me apart within. It's just harder for me in the day as my co-workers notice me sleeping or upset all the time lol. If I could. I'll choose to be high everytime. I'm done going through the feelings.

Why do you get high? Is it for fun or for something else?

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Starsandfire · 31-35, F

I haven’t for a while, after a very bad experience trying edibles for the first time. But mostly to get a break from the constant high alert anxiety state of mind I’m in.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@Starsandfire I hope you feel better now

Starsandfire · 31-35, F

I’m hanging on in there and I hope you are too @Beatbox34

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@Starsandfire It's a rollercoaster for me.

My mind is all over the place. Idk what I'm doing. At work, I'm staring at a screen for no reason. I'm dead inside tbh. Maybe I'll get out of it or let it kill me. Idk anymore.

Starsandfire · 31-35, F

I’m not you and I don’t pretend to totally understand how it feels for you…but I get it. I absolutely do. You’re not alone 🤗@Beatbox34