Why do you get high?

Idk anymore. It started out as a way for me to forget stuff. Escalated to stop crying. Then came a point when I felt so much and I wanted to feel nothing. I'm numb the third time in a row and it's good. I can't feel shit. I can't cry after I'm high. I'm just smiling even though it's ripping me apart within. It's just harder for me in the day as my co-workers notice me sleeping or upset all the time lol. If I could. I'll choose to be high everytime. I'm done going through the feelings.

Why do you get high? Is it for fun or for something else?

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lovelywarpedlemon

i get high bc i'm lonely basically. cannabis has been my friend since 12 yrs of age. but it also just feels good & lets me not worry so much. btw i saw your comment below, be careful drinking in your car, you don't have to be in the driver's seat to get a DUI in a parked car, you just have to be inside the vehicle with an open container, so be careful please. 🤗

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@lovelywarpedlemon I'm just too depressed and it's getting the best of me.

Idk. I need to kill so much in me. I can barely keep my eyes open and tbh the alcohol has only been something that never left me. People used me and trashed me. I never mattered and will never matter. I wish I did though.

Thank you so much for this . Idk. Thank you for caring. It means so much to me 🤗

lovelywarpedlemon

@Beatbox34 you do matter. i'm sorry people treated you that way. it's all too common for bullies to win over quiet & kind people, it's not fair but we just keep moving on... aww i can imagine how you're feeling now, it's lonely out there. big hugs & wishes for brighter tomorrows. 🤗🖤