Old photos

Seeing old photos of myself from when I was so ill is almost unexplainable in the way it makes me feel. I feel kind of mournful in a way like I’m mourning the person I was who went through all that pain, but also shocked that I had no idea I looked like that, that I believed I still didn’t look ill enough. I want to erase those photos and erase that time but at the same time it’s so important that I remember what I went through so I will never go through it again.