It’s hard to keep going

I’ve managed to get to the stage in my anorexia recovery where I just know that I need food, so I get it. However my head has been creeping back in recently, focusing on pictures of myself I have seen and saying that I am too big and shouldn’t eat. I’m trying not to listen to it but now I just feel guilty about eating anything. I can’t let anorexia beat me again because I can’t go back to the hell that my life was, but how am I meant to deal with all of this guilt??

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HootyTheNightOwl

Are you able to acknowledge just how sick you were before you got to the stage that you are now at???

If you can see and acknowledge that to yourself, you can use logic on the guilty feelings "I might think that I am 'fat' now, but I am healthier for all the hard work I have put into getting my weight back up to a healthy level and I am not going to go back to being unhealthy again because it means that I have to claw myself back out of that hole all over again".

Another thing you could try is to write out a list of things that you dislike about being anorexic and on the other side, write a list of what you like about being where you are right now. When you start to feel bad, look at this list and think about whether you want to go back to those things that you didn't like or stay here with these things that you do like. Hopefully, that should encourage you to continue with your recovery.

Moonsofmars · 18-21, F

@HootyTheNightOwl thank you, this is so kind. I have written out a list of comparison and it really helps. I will refer to it when I feel this way. Thank you so much

HootyTheNightOwl

@Moonsofmars Another thing that may help you is therapy... you need a therapist who can teach you other coping mechanisms to deal with your feelings of guilt and shame.

Moonsofmars · 18-21, F

@HootyTheNightOwl yes I have a therapist I actually have a treatment team too. It’s going to be ok, thank you so much

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