I used someone for sex and now I feel horrible.

It’s not like he didn’t know it was just sex, but by the end of our encounter he was talking about seeing me again. I freaked out and blocked his number.

What is wrong with me rn? 😭 My heart is so broken the pain shoots between my shoulders. I’m constantly nauseous. I hate being back in Delaware. I hate the man I loved, still love, doesn’t want to be with me because of his own unresolved pain.

I just want the hurt to STOP 😭