Without naming names, since most of you probably already know, there's something I'm struggling with.

A certain person on a certain website has decided certain things about me are true. This certain person has decided I'm a worthless leech and a drain on humanity, and that my father is an exploitative bastard. This person refuses to say any of this stuff to my face. He then calls me even more names, because I'm frustrated that he won't find the courage to talk like that without being safely ensconced in his computer room, protected from the consequences of his words.

This bothers me. I can't seem to let it go.

But what's worse about this is, this certain person on this certain website is popular. This certain person has friends. Said friends encourage this person to talk to me in this fashion.

In my mind, this means that the popular consensus among this person and his friends is that I am worthless. And if I'm worthless, why am I still alive?

Addressing this certain person does no good. He just doubles down on his attacks, and his friends encourage him. This confirms my conclusion that the general consensus is that I am worthless.

And naturally, when I address this, I'm called a drama queen, because it can't possibly be that there's a real issue there that needs to be addressed. This certain person on this certain website refuses to respond to the last PM I sent him, and as a result, the matter cannot be settled privately.


TL;DR: Guy with lots of friends tells me I'm a worthless leech, and his friends agree. This causes me to think he might be right, leading to thoughts of self-harm. I can't directly address the issue, because he refuses.