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Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
Yes. I have it. It goes under social anxiety but for me, the anxiety is the fear of people putting me in danger. Not just being looked at or judged, but injured, killed even.
And it's very subconscious. It's not me walking around actively thinking "oh no they will kill me" it's more like an underlying fear. And my body reacts like I'm in serious danger sometimes when I'm in public. Sometimes even with my partner.
I'm still figuring out how it works to be honest. I didn't know it was this bad until I started therapy and we started digging in what my anxiety really is.
It's a bit easier online as it's anonymous, I can just block if something feels wrong, but too much online interactions will activate that fear response in me. Especially after someone has been rude to me. Then I almost wanna delete my account. But I have trained myself to not escape. This is exposure therapy for me.
And it's very subconscious. It's not me walking around actively thinking "oh no they will kill me" it's more like an underlying fear. And my body reacts like I'm in serious danger sometimes when I'm in public. Sometimes even with my partner.
I'm still figuring out how it works to be honest. I didn't know it was this bad until I started therapy and we started digging in what my anxiety really is.
It's a bit easier online as it's anonymous, I can just block if something feels wrong, but too much online interactions will activate that fear response in me. Especially after someone has been rude to me. Then I almost wanna delete my account. But I have trained myself to not escape. This is exposure therapy for me.
Casheyane · F
@Queendragonfly Do you still make friends then?