I'm very cold and distant in public. Not because I'm trying to be rude but because of social anxiety

After traumas and going through a lot , seems to me your a very solid person . A lot people in today's world can't be on there own .
They always need validation off others .
I stay on my own a lot through too traumas and why ? I don't want too inter act on the bull shit .
Some people would depress the shit out of you there's so depressing.
You don't need that my friend .
Your doing great.
And when you want to inter act socially you inter act . That's on your own terms . Nobody else's.
Your doing great . The biggest trick of the mind is when your like that is that everyone's happy and having a great time except you . That's not the case . Don't be fooled by people's smiles thinking there doing better than you . That's all the tricks my friend . .Your a strong person if you can do that . Anyway my friend. You don't need a crowd to be happy . All it is is one or two .

Wearing good cloth facemasks helps me alot

ima recluse too

I offer this. Many, many people do not feel comfortable around strangers. You are not alone in that regard.

This site offers support groups. Start there, maybe. You are still young. You don’t have to end up the way you started.

https://sharewellnow.com/support-groups/social-anxiety