Warning… weird post
This is an awkward post but I’m posting it anyway…
These things are only some of the things I remember. I remember very little about my childhood.
I want to be heard. Someone on here made a post clearly targeted towards me saying something really disgusting. I blocked the user but it triggered me and I felt disgusting. I asked Gemini.. what were the boundary violations?
Seeing it spelled out clearly can be incredibly grounding. When you grow up in an environment where your boundaries are constantly crossed, your sense of "normal" gets warped, and you can start to doubt yourself.
Based exactly on the notes you shared, here are the direct, undeniable boundary violations for what they truly are:
1. Severe Violations of Physical and Sexual Autonomy
Forced Physical Proximity: Being made to sleep in her bed well into your teens, and still as an adult at 29, is a massive violation of an individual's right to personal space and independent development. (I dont sleep in her bed anymore, I did when I was still early in my recovery from alcohol).
Inappropriate Sexual Behavior and Comments: Waking up with clothes undone as a child in her bed and having the response dismissed, being called "sexy," and having unsolicited comments made about your body are explicit violations of sexual boundaries.
Exposure to Graphic Material: Forcing a child to watch graphic sexual horror scenes and laughing when asked to fast-forward is a severe psychological and emotional violation.
Enforcing Inappropriate Roleplay: Forcing you to play roles like "boyfriend" during childhood play is a profound distortion of appropriate parent-child boundaries. Ignoring you acting out parent/child sexual abuse during play.
2. Complete Erasure of Physical Privacy
Bathing Violations: Barging into the bathroom, busting a lock while you were bathing as a 29-year-old adult, and refusing to leave after being asked multiple times is a direct violation of basic privacy and physical dignity.
Inappropriate Exposure: Walking around in a bra and changing clothes directly in front of you with "literally zero boundaries" forces an inappropriate level of exposure onto you.
Inappropriate Sharing (Parentification): Sharing graphic details about her own sex life with you crosses a major boundary by forcing an adult dynamic onto a son.
3. Physical Abuse and Medical Neglect
Physical Harm and Trauma: The memory of being held under water as a very young child is an act of severe physical abuse and a threat to your life.
Medical and Emotional Neglect: Dragging a seven-year-old child inside with a broken arm and simply going to bed while you cried is an absolute failure of parental care and protection.
Enabling Harmful Behaviors: Giving you alcohol to manage withdrawal—to the point where a caseworker had to step in and send you to the hospital—was an act of physical harm under the guise of "help," as confirmed by the doctor.
4. Psychological Manipulation and Erasure of Identity
Undermining Recovery and Self-Worth: Telling you that you would "be an addict without her" and constantly downtalking you is an attempt to destroy your independence and make you feel entirely dependent on the source of your trauma.
Seeing It
When you look at this list, it is completely clear: the sickness belonged to the environment, not to you. You didn't ask for this, you didn't create it, and you certainly didn't "secretly like it." Your mind built a story and a character like this because it was the only safe place you had to put all this chaos so you could survive it.
You are seeing it clearly now as an adult man. This is what you are healing from, and every boundary you set today—like blocking that post or keeping our story "in the sun"—is you taking your power back.
These things are only some of the things I remember. I remember very little about my childhood.
I want to be heard. Someone on here made a post clearly targeted towards me saying something really disgusting. I blocked the user but it triggered me and I felt disgusting. I asked Gemini.. what were the boundary violations?
Seeing it spelled out clearly can be incredibly grounding. When you grow up in an environment where your boundaries are constantly crossed, your sense of "normal" gets warped, and you can start to doubt yourself.
Based exactly on the notes you shared, here are the direct, undeniable boundary violations for what they truly are:
1. Severe Violations of Physical and Sexual Autonomy
Forced Physical Proximity: Being made to sleep in her bed well into your teens, and still as an adult at 29, is a massive violation of an individual's right to personal space and independent development. (I dont sleep in her bed anymore, I did when I was still early in my recovery from alcohol).
Inappropriate Sexual Behavior and Comments: Waking up with clothes undone as a child in her bed and having the response dismissed, being called "sexy," and having unsolicited comments made about your body are explicit violations of sexual boundaries.
Exposure to Graphic Material: Forcing a child to watch graphic sexual horror scenes and laughing when asked to fast-forward is a severe psychological and emotional violation.
Enforcing Inappropriate Roleplay: Forcing you to play roles like "boyfriend" during childhood play is a profound distortion of appropriate parent-child boundaries. Ignoring you acting out parent/child sexual abuse during play.
2. Complete Erasure of Physical Privacy
Bathing Violations: Barging into the bathroom, busting a lock while you were bathing as a 29-year-old adult, and refusing to leave after being asked multiple times is a direct violation of basic privacy and physical dignity.
Inappropriate Exposure: Walking around in a bra and changing clothes directly in front of you with "literally zero boundaries" forces an inappropriate level of exposure onto you.
Inappropriate Sharing (Parentification): Sharing graphic details about her own sex life with you crosses a major boundary by forcing an adult dynamic onto a son.
3. Physical Abuse and Medical Neglect
Physical Harm and Trauma: The memory of being held under water as a very young child is an act of severe physical abuse and a threat to your life.
Medical and Emotional Neglect: Dragging a seven-year-old child inside with a broken arm and simply going to bed while you cried is an absolute failure of parental care and protection.
Enabling Harmful Behaviors: Giving you alcohol to manage withdrawal—to the point where a caseworker had to step in and send you to the hospital—was an act of physical harm under the guise of "help," as confirmed by the doctor.
4. Psychological Manipulation and Erasure of Identity
Undermining Recovery and Self-Worth: Telling you that you would "be an addict without her" and constantly downtalking you is an attempt to destroy your independence and make you feel entirely dependent on the source of your trauma.
Seeing It
When you look at this list, it is completely clear: the sickness belonged to the environment, not to you. You didn't ask for this, you didn't create it, and you certainly didn't "secretly like it." Your mind built a story and a character like this because it was the only safe place you had to put all this chaos so you could survive it.
You are seeing it clearly now as an adult man. This is what you are healing from, and every boundary you set today—like blocking that post or keeping our story "in the sun"—is you taking your power back.
26-30, M