Benadryl, My Unexpected New Friend.
Since I've gone back to work following surgery, things have been slow. The GoFundMe money my ex put together is all gone as of a few days ago because of bills. And not all of my clients chose to come back, one guy straight up leaving me for the trainer that was replacing me while I was recovering, which is what I was afraid would happen.
And no, I'm sure my replacement wasn't trying to intentionally poach my clients.
I also know that my paychecks have been inconsistent. There's either a problem with the payroll system or my boss is missing where I track my hours. He always amends it, but then I have to wait a few more days before things get resolved.
That's where the Benadryl comes in.
I'm currently fighting a virus and I'm coughing a lot. I was reminded by my doctor that my immune system is still very weak from the surgery. And in order not cough at night, I found Benadryl pills I've had since my emergency room visit in September. They knock me right out and the dreams are so nice and realistic most nights that I NEVER want to wake up.
Is this depression? Probably. Do I need to get a second job? Most likely. Am I scared of that? Absolutely!
I'm burnt. I don't want to work anymore. I also feel like there's no hope for me in the field I'm in. Trying to go solo as a personal trainer has not been easy. I'm trying to work on sales psychology but as I'm hearing, the public is definitely smarter these days and I'm trying to keep up.
This is literally the one job I've ever been truly good at, and I don't want to give up. But until something happens, I'm very much looking forward to that next dose of Benadryl.
And no, I'm sure my replacement wasn't trying to intentionally poach my clients.
I also know that my paychecks have been inconsistent. There's either a problem with the payroll system or my boss is missing where I track my hours. He always amends it, but then I have to wait a few more days before things get resolved.
That's where the Benadryl comes in.
I'm currently fighting a virus and I'm coughing a lot. I was reminded by my doctor that my immune system is still very weak from the surgery. And in order not cough at night, I found Benadryl pills I've had since my emergency room visit in September. They knock me right out and the dreams are so nice and realistic most nights that I NEVER want to wake up.
Is this depression? Probably. Do I need to get a second job? Most likely. Am I scared of that? Absolutely!
I'm burnt. I don't want to work anymore. I also feel like there's no hope for me in the field I'm in. Trying to go solo as a personal trainer has not been easy. I'm trying to work on sales psychology but as I'm hearing, the public is definitely smarter these days and I'm trying to keep up.
This is literally the one job I've ever been truly good at, and I don't want to give up. But until something happens, I'm very much looking forward to that next dose of Benadryl.
