I realized something yesterday
When I was a child, I would just randomly disassociate.
I remember being at my grandmother's house in the summer and we were at the dinner table. I was looking out the window, but I really wasn't there. My brain was way off somewhere else to the point, I didn't even hear her tapping on the table and saying, "Hey Dreamer! Eat your dinner!" till she had put her hand on my arm and drew me out of wherever my brain had traveled to.
As I think back, I had these brain travel episodes a lot throughout my childhood. I thought everyone did this.
It didn’t dawn on me that this was a part of my CPTSD that was doing this till just yesterday. That makes a great deal of sense now.
The things we learn...
I remember being at my grandmother's house in the summer and we were at the dinner table. I was looking out the window, but I really wasn't there. My brain was way off somewhere else to the point, I didn't even hear her tapping on the table and saying, "Hey Dreamer! Eat your dinner!" till she had put her hand on my arm and drew me out of wherever my brain had traveled to.
As I think back, I had these brain travel episodes a lot throughout my childhood. I thought everyone did this.
It didn’t dawn on me that this was a part of my CPTSD that was doing this till just yesterday. That makes a great deal of sense now.
The things we learn...
