I wasn't sure what to say

So I talked to my therapist about what I should say to my buddy when I went to see him today he wasn't much help. I guess it's hard to be any help in this situation. I didn't know if I should ask him why he did it, why he did it at my house why did he use my heart pills to do it I didn't know if I should tell him that I'm angry at him or I'm scared for him or both I just didn't know.

So when I walked in his room I still didn't know what I was going to say. But what I saw in that bed was not my proud confident friend it was a sad scared broken man so I didn't say anything to him. I just sat next to him and let him say what he needed to which was not much. I don't think this was the time or the place to say anything to him about it and the time may never be right. I don't know if I'll ever know why he did it or if I will need to know why he did it. I just know he's my friend and I need to be there for him no matter what.

So he told me the nurses like the braids in his hair and is painted nails which we have both laughed over. we talked about the Chiefs and the Royals. He said to tell tiny tornado that he was sorry he was going to have to miss his birthday party tomorrow and he hopes that he understands.

I told him he would be okay with it and we just do something when he got out of the hospital. He asked me if you still had a place to stay with us and I said of course he was always welcome in our house no matter what.

And that was pretty much it that was our visit they gave him some medicine and it made him very sleepy so before he dozed off I told him I would see him tomorrow and to call me if you needed anything or to talk later tonight I'd probably be up he kind of laughed about that. And I left.

This friend of mine

OlderSometimesWiser · F

Don’t think there are many guidelines for this type of situation. I sense that it will unfold naturally as he- and you- feel comfortable speaking about what happened. Or not speaking about it. Only time will tell.

And obviously sheer speculation on my part but I think he did it at your house, and when you and Joel were around, because he wanted to be rescued. I’m sure there were plenty of opportunities when he could have done it when he was alone.

I’d like to believe that’s a good sign.

Cigarguy · M

@OlderSometimesWiser yea you are right, seeing him like this is very hard. So I decided that I'm just going to be there for him. Be what he needs, a friend. And if and when he wants to talk I'll listen.

I'm glad we're there and that he can outside. His heart stopped and we had to do CPR on until the ambulance got there, and they had to shock him a few times. If he would of waited 5 minutes he would not of made it. It's so was so scary. Thank God Joel knows CPR.

Thank you for your kind words they always help me so much!!