Is this a normal feeling / thought to have? It's very painful.

I don't know if this will make sense to people but I'm just saying it like it is. Every day the most inconsequential thing can irritate me and it's like a "domino effect" happens in my brain and I start thinking about how weak I am as a person, like if this little thing can upset me then how weak am I compared to people who have been through actual struggles, and I think about how vulnerable we are as humans, how anything can hurt us and we're virtually powerless to stop it, I think about my friends and stories I've heard of awful things happening, images I've seen.

So yeah the result is that this one little minor inconvenience turned into thoughts of death and tragedy and injustice and I just shut down and wish I could flip a switch on my head to just fall asleep so I don't have to deal with anything anymore.

Like I said it's very painful. Does this happen to everyone?

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

I was like that years ago but I did find my way through it.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@ScreamingFox How?

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SinlessOnslaught therapy and self help books. Ultimately I had to force my brain to derail off the train to nowhere. Radical acceptance of my flaws and anxieties. Self control was powerful. Understanding that I was imperfectly, ultimately okay and I have so little control over most things it isn't worth the stress.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@ScreamingFox Where does the train to nowhere go when you derail it? Lol

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SinlessOnslaught Anywhere but the awful thoughts. Something more productive. Or just flipping my thoughts. Telling myself I'm safe, I'm a good person who can change something if I need to, I have power over myself. Humming helps