People who've had depression, please tell me: life does feel different when you see it from the lens of depression, right?

11th day of journaling here...
Everything takes too much effort, everything is exhausting, every moment is full of doubt of myself, every second is filled with self hatred... I'm fearing people's judgement too much, more than normal. I am procrastinating too much. I feel like a burden on everyone who tried to help (except occasionally).
All I want to do is cry, lay down, or just stay by myself.
I am seeing a doctor this week or the next. (depending if the appointment fits the schedule...)

Just so I know... this is normal, right?

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robb65 · 56-60, M

Mine comes and goes. There was a time several years back when I was depressed and didn't realize that's what I was dealing with. I still have a bad day occasionally but now I understand what it is and it doesn't stick around as long.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@robb65
I'm so sorry about that...
Please tell me, are you on medication?

robb65 · 56-60, M

@Friendlyperson No, not on medication. Most days are good right now. I try not to dwell on the negative. If I'm having a bad day I'll either try to get alone somewhere for a little while and find something positive or funny to think about, or I'll get out and get away from everything, maybe ride to town or something. I know that doesn't work for everyone but it usually helps me.