I think... I'm proud of myself.
I don't know if it is my hypomania talking, but my heart feels heavy now. And it is not like I'm feeling overjoyed at this moment.
But...even though it seems like it is nothing and it is just me doing what seems sensible, but I believe the efforts I'm making with handling my MH disorder (looking for adequate psychiatrists even though I'm shocked time and time again by their lack of empathy and trustworthiness, searching for the adequate medication, discussing the symptoms with someone I trust...) while dealing with symptoms themselves.... All while managing the physical exhaustion, the every 05 days mostly busy 24h shifts, the stress of many events occuring at this moment and, at the same time trying to be a better person.......
I think... this is something worth mentioning, something I should be proud of.
Even though all the energy to keep up might be because of my hypomania... but still, the resilience, the audacity to face the fears and insecurities and pain firsthand is quite amazing.
I'm suprised I'm saying this about myself to be honest.
But I believe anyone battling MH disease and still trying despite all the challenges deserve recognition... and everyone helping those of us who need support deserve gratitude.
So anyone here who's been there for me. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
But...even though it seems like it is nothing and it is just me doing what seems sensible, but I believe the efforts I'm making with handling my MH disorder (looking for adequate psychiatrists even though I'm shocked time and time again by their lack of empathy and trustworthiness, searching for the adequate medication, discussing the symptoms with someone I trust...) while dealing with symptoms themselves.... All while managing the physical exhaustion, the every 05 days mostly busy 24h shifts, the stress of many events occuring at this moment and, at the same time trying to be a better person.......
I think... this is something worth mentioning, something I should be proud of.
Even though all the energy to keep up might be because of my hypomania... but still, the resilience, the audacity to face the fears and insecurities and pain firsthand is quite amazing.
I'm suprised I'm saying this about myself to be honest.
But I believe anyone battling MH disease and still trying despite all the challenges deserve recognition... and everyone helping those of us who need support deserve gratitude.
So anyone here who's been there for me. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
26-30, F
