Progress and life update

So the last few I've been feeling a lot happier smiling more and enjoying myself. actually going out and talking to people. I've felt really bloody good..... however there's this feeling or utter dread I can't seem to shake like this ain't going to last and soon enough I'll be back to my moody depressed self. And I don't want this feeling to end I've felt more happier then I have in like the last 6 or 7 months. But there's still little thing I can't seem to shake. The sadness still creeps in mostly at night I'm still a bit lonely and the girl I liked and I thought liked me dosent seem to be into me anymore and I can't stop thinking about there's things and I feel it's stopping from being happy.....but at the same time I can't just forget about her because I still like her alot it's hard......but yeah that's my rant....not like anyone actually reads my posts 🤣