sorry everyone

I am sorry to everyone that has been bombarded with my depressing posts as of lately. I hate being so negative all the time and enjoyed just having fun and writing and talking about lite hearted stuff.
I feel like I have been stuck in this hospital for so long now and it's hard to think of anything but what is wrong with me. In psych wards it's as if you are not a person and instead you are just your illness and it's really hard to get out of that frame of mind when every day, all day its shoved in your face.

around 2 months in here and I am still not given any clue when they will free me. I feel like they won't ever let me leave and I am losing myself more and more as the days go on. This is basically a diary type thingy for me here because they can't read this like they do in my books I write in when I am not in my room.
Anyway, I think this will be the last thing I write for a fair while, I just want to be me again and I cannot do that now and I don't want to be seen like this.
Maybe this isn"t making much sense but anyway.
Thank you for everyone who has been so kind and supportive to me on here. You guys rock.
Maybe later in the future some time I will come back on here and will be myself again and be a lot better to talk to.
Hope everyone stays safe and thank you again ❤️