What do you think?

Stopping Effexor: abrupt cessation of the drug can result in withdrawal. Because of this, it is essential to discuss a safe tapering dosage with a doctor to ensure healthy and safe discontinuation.

Of course you’re not a bad person. Not for suffering the trauma, not for surviving it, not for being affected by it and mot because some days it’s just hard to do the right thing. One thing to keep in mind about medication: It’s a failsafe. It’s not typically the best line of defense and should only ever be used in conjunction with therapy. Pills don’t fix, they mask.

That said, you’re on a regimen set up by a professional and it’s in your best interest to follow it. You’re not even nearly alone in being occasionally noncompliant with your treatment. Everyone gets tired of it. In your case, however, it’s very important to stay on your meds until a step-down regimen is planned. It’s a little like stopping a 75mph car on a dime. A little jarring.

Good luck and if you’d like any materials or resources on PTSD, feel free to PM or check out www.therapistaid.com and look around. Good luck.

You're not a bad person just a person whose brain chemistry was abruptly seriously disturbed. It's common for anyone who stops taking antidepressants/antipsychotics, especially cold turkey but even when tapering or a while after "withdrawing"

@JaneCas We all have them. You know how to get back on the horse; you're doing all the right things. So sorry to hear about your mother; I lost mine at around the same age. Grieve, cry, yell, laugh, remember, breathe and honor the healing of time.

There is another way to combat PTSD, it's been around since the 1940s but it's not well known, or advertised. Have a look & listen to this article. https://www.wral.com/the-ptsd-treatment-that-experts-say-was-hiding-in-plain-sight/20060587/
It might be a solution worth investigating.