The Dam Finally Broke……

I cried and cried all day yesterday, trying to get rid of my outward and internal pain. I was recently diagnosed with Boderline Personaliity Disorder. I was first diagnosed with Bipolar, but, BPD mimics bipolar. Very tough to diagnose.

All my life I was told it was a weakness to cry. I would always try and hide it because I was so ashamed. I haven’t really cried in a very long time until yesterday! It felt like all my emotions were pouring out on the floor. It hurt, but, I let the tears flow. I’m very drained at this point. I let go of a lot yesterday. At least I think I did. Who knows…..it’s likely to build again! But, I’ve got to try and let go more often.

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MoonlightLullaby Best Comment

I can't imagine what you go through, but I'm sorry you had a bad day yesterday. Although it may sound insensitive or cold, your tears weren't in vain. Instead, look at this as growth because you let it go. Its important that we process all of our feelings vs putting up a facade We need to cry. Its healthy. Holding back is more detrimental to our psyche. They're like a soul cleanser.

For what its worth though, you have already made extreme progress, especially when it comes to anger. You're becoming absolutely badass in the handling of your new diagnosis and navigating your emotions. I also applaud you for the courage to write something so vulnerable.

💖 & 💡 plus some 🤗's

SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby yes, i debated for a while about writing this post today!! But, i had to get some feelings out in written form also!! I hate to feel vulnerable too......but, im tearing down those walls now. Its time for a new and better me. It has been hard trying to deal with this new diagnosis, but, at least i know now what my issues are and where they come from. I appreciate you and your unwavering support. No, my tears were not in vain at all. I felt very cleansed......my soul feels a lot lighter now!! Plus, my heart isnt so heavy!! I also thank you for seeing the badass in me. As you well know, i love that song by Halestorm, I am The Fire!! 😉 thats me to a tee!! 🔥😎 💖 &💡 many 🤗s to my bestie!!

MoonlightLullaby

@SW-User Always remember this on the bad days. I have to tell my own self...

Crumble, scream, cry and rest. Repeat as necessary. 🌷✨

SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby thank you for this!! I will always remember that!! I know a lot of what you went through, you and i are kinda similar. Its what kinda brought our paths to cross!! Im blessed to know you and have you as a bestie!! 🙏🤗🍀

MoonlightLullaby

@SW-User Oh yeah. I forgot to encourage your writing. Catharsis can take place and give you a boost. Don't fear it because we're all humans with some sort of issue (s). Exceptions made for those hiding beneath a lump of positive pretense. 😏

SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby no boosting for me!! Dont wanna cause a riot!! 😂 but on a serious note....thank you for being you and being real with me!! 💖😊

MoonlightLullaby

@SW-User Samesies 🍀🤗🌷

.... and yep, just different prisons🧜‍♀️

MoonlightLullaby

@MoonlightLullaby Thank you for BC and being my best friend.💫

SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby you deserve it and no need to thank me!! I am honored to be your best friend!! 🥂✨

MoonlightLullaby

@SW-User Yes ma'am.🤭 Just keep fighting both of the battles you were dealt....

SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby i am a warrior, i bring the fire 🔥!! I intend on continuing dealing with both......trust me on that!! 💖🌷