The Dam Finally Broke……

I cried and cried all day yesterday, trying to get rid of my outward and internal pain. I was recently diagnosed with Boderline Personaliity Disorder. I was first diagnosed with Bipolar, but, BPD mimics bipolar. Very tough to diagnose.

All my life I was told it was a weakness to cry. I would always try and hide it because I was so ashamed. I haven’t really cried in a very long time until yesterday! It felt like all my emotions were pouring out on the floor. It hurt, but, I let the tears flow. I’m very drained at this point. I let go of a lot yesterday. At least I think I did. Who knows…..it’s likely to build again! But, I’ve got to try and let go more often.