An Intrusion......

I see the words but i don't read them. I feel the soft rubber against the underside of my index finger as I scroll down the page, but it isn't me scrolling. It isn't me feeling the soft rubber against the underside of my index finger. It isn't me seeing the words but not reading them. My actions are not my own anymore. My emotions are not my own anymore. My thoughts are not my own anymore….. Nothing is my own….anymore. I have been stripped away, against my will, by my own mind. My existence is being thrown into the ocean and being swept away at sea. I am being thrown around like a ragdoll, over and over again. I am cut and bruised, beaten and battered. Every part of me is aching but i try to gasp for air, trying to liberate any part of my identity that is left, but it is too late. The whirlpool of darkness has swallowed you whole, no trace of you to be found. Instead, something twisted takes your place….tries to impersonate you. It wants to be you…..nothing is my own anymore.