I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me

She's getting a divorce; I found out today. She's made it clear over the past few years that she isn't happy with him, and soon they will be no more. I've wanted her so badly over the time we've known each other, and I think she knows it. She flirts but then pulls back when I decide to play along. Why entice me and then ignore me?
I used to think that maybe she was holding back because she was married, and while I understand that sentiment; she initiated this sordid torment! Maybe I'm just a plaything for her sick mind games; maybe all men are, and this is how she's fulfilling some dark desire or this is her vengeance for some malfeasance of the past.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid, or maybe I am truly damned.
There doesn't appear to be any solace from her cruel intentions, no balm to relieve the suffering, and no elixir to slake the insatiable thirst left by her absence.