I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me

I guess he wanted to destroy the last little piece of me that was left. He succeeded. Who I was is long gone. I am a shell that is just here. Id believe I was dead if not for my pain. I tried so hard to love ...to lift..even as I was drowning. I was never taught love or loyalty as a child... I was neglected and abused almost to death. I was feral when they found me. I could barely talk. I don't talk much anymore. My words..my poetry came so deep and genuinely from my heart and they meant nothing. At all. I feel like the ugliest girl alive. Im burned out . My soul just longs to be free