Since nobody seems to see these anyway...

Sometimes I just want a long, loving hug. To hold and be held. Anything beyond that seems completely impossible, and even this dream feels unattainable. Got to push through the touch starvation to get back to numbness. Comfortable numbness.

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LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

Loneliness can be just as deadly as anything else.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@LordShadowfire I wish it would hurry up then XD

LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

@KiwiDan No.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@LordShadowfire Are you saying you want me around, or that I shouldn't wish for it to hurry up?

LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

@KiwiDan I'm saying both. I don't want anybody to feel so horrible that they wish for death. But I'm also saying you don't actually wish for it. What you wish is that the suffering would end. Your brain misinterprets that as a desire to die.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@LordShadowfire The suffering will be over once I hit numbness. Mentally, there's not even any suffering left any more, it's just getting through this touch starvation.

LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

@KiwiDan You're not nearly old enough for it to be natural to die. And you're sure as hell not too old to find someone to hug you.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@LordShadowfire I am too unlovable though.

LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

@KiwiDan No. That's your brain telling lies to you. Don't listen to it.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@LordShadowfire It was also the multiple (two directly and I guess you could argue others through rejection) women who said it too

LordShadowfire · 46-50, M

@KiwiDan Okay, so a few out of the 4 billion women on this planet said they didn't like you.