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Miram · 31-35, F
I don't seek it out.
So I sometimes fail to relate to other people who crave it , though we all had traumatic pasts.
I also fail to respond to love by accepting it. I don't think " I don't deserve it" . I just don't know how to reacte correctly. I am more comfortable with negative feelings and have issues trusting love. I think most people's love is fickle.
I also don't like how most love isn't good enough to incite people to do the right thing for everyone. Their love is selfish, short lived..Feelings alone aren't good enough.
So I sometimes fail to relate to other people who crave it , though we all had traumatic pasts.
I also fail to respond to love by accepting it. I don't think " I don't deserve it" . I just don't know how to reacte correctly. I am more comfortable with negative feelings and have issues trusting love. I think most people's love is fickle.
I also don't like how most love isn't good enough to incite people to do the right thing for everyone. Their love is selfish, short lived..Feelings alone aren't good enough.
basilfawlty89 · 36-40, M
@Miram you've bee through so much. I'm glad you don't think you don't deserve love, because if there's anyone who does it's definitely you.
Coralmist · 41-45, F
@Miram I wish we could feel warm and open about love. And trust it. I don't trust myself...I feel most only offer it in a very conditional way, and when I already feel less than others, there's no narrative where I feel love can be a part of my life. I know this is a lot of what trauma inside believes though ... It will spin everything negative whenever possible, and my mind believes it. I agree that many seem to have love that is selfish and a very instant gratification foundation. 😢
Miram · 31-35, F
@basilfawlty89 I think everyone deserves love. But not everyone has to love everyone.
And it is more important to be able to love than to be loved. The two can be linked but they don't depend on each other , like most people tend to believe.
@Coralmist Yes. I am not really certain that "conditional " love is wrong. It would depend on the nature of those conditions and the extent of its passiveness which is incredibly disproportionate these days with actions for most people.
It is not even their own fault alone to be honest.
It is how we built our world and how we all contribute to it and benefit from it ,in ways that are inferior compared to the alternative potential. We know things should be better. We know this because in the depth of our depths we can experience a great deal of love/good/compassion...etc And we can (most of us) refer to it in certain situations.
But we humans like comfort and avoid change, and the cost that comes with change since short term gains are prioritized over long term ones. And there is so much uncertainty if we are to change economic and social structures that aren't self-driven.
And it is more important to be able to love than to be loved. The two can be linked but they don't depend on each other , like most people tend to believe.
@Coralmist Yes. I am not really certain that "conditional " love is wrong. It would depend on the nature of those conditions and the extent of its passiveness which is incredibly disproportionate these days with actions for most people.
It is not even their own fault alone to be honest.
It is how we built our world and how we all contribute to it and benefit from it ,in ways that are inferior compared to the alternative potential. We know things should be better. We know this because in the depth of our depths we can experience a great deal of love/good/compassion...etc And we can (most of us) refer to it in certain situations.
But we humans like comfort and avoid change, and the cost that comes with change since short term gains are prioritized over long term ones. And there is so much uncertainty if we are to change economic and social structures that aren't self-driven.