how to not feel angry about the things i imagine

in my lonely flat, i tend to think deeply and fantasize about other people's lives, and i thought recently, what if when i die, that girls and men get off on it sexually?...they have erotic sex in a doggy position getting off on my demise and death?

and i felt really enraged at those people by thinking of that, with the strong urge of wanting to get aggressive with people, because of what i imagine they would do after my death?

i know it's a really bizarre perverted thought, but i have all kinds of thoughts daily, which i try to dismiss and not think about.....but its hard, especially if you don't have a girlfriend at the moment like me, because you deal with mental and social problems.....but i really want to overcome them and achieve the goal of finding a partner....but until i do, my fantasies run away with me a lot, especially about others in society.....and wishing i had what they have or what they possibly experience.

any thoughts on how i can deal with this?

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dancingtongue · 80-89, M

Turn off whatever device you are on, go down to the pub, and meet some real live people. Get involved with some people, perhaps volunteer work, socialize with fellow human beings rather than solely your electronic devices and fantasies.

We had to move, meaning I had to change schools, when we were 13. I walked the halls at lunch time, feeling sorry for myself, angry at the world. Until I met another kid doing the same. Asked him if he was new and an outsider too, and he said no, he had lived there all his life and been in school with these kids since kindergarten. And I thought this is BS, and the next day signed up for a couple of lunchtime social clubs, and a couple more the next day.

Stop walking your digital hallways all the time and find some human interaction.